I haven’t written on my blog in a very long time. It has been since August when I announced that Baby C was definitely a girl. I had a tough time towards the end of my pregnancy, and between starting back to real work (I work some in the summers doing part of my job, but when the kids get back the grind picks up) and moving into my third trimester, blogging was the last thing on my mind. After baby girl came on December 2nd, I thought about writing about her birth and doing her monthly updates, but because I had been out of the blogging world for so long I couldn’t find the motivation to start back. I was learning to be a new mom, and though I thought I was prepared, it definitely was (and has been) a transition. I’ve been documenting everything for myself and writing Olivia’s birth story, monthly updates, and important moments down so that I will have them to reflect back on, but when I was writing them, I still didn’t feel like making the transition back into blogging.
That said, the urge to start back writing more frequently has recently increased. I thought about starting a new blog, but the transition that this blog has made from lifestyle blogger to a sad attempt at a fashion blog to running blogger to tracking my journey to Ironman is who I am, and now that I’m a mom I don’t want to leave that behind. Becoming a mother has been a huge transition for me, and the past 11 weeks have absolutely caused me to shift my focus from anything related to me to everything related to Olivia, and to some extend that has been difficult and to another extent I have loved everything about it. I decided that I have things to share and that I want to stay connected to other women in the blogging world and share my story. So, all that to say, I’m back to blogging!
I wanted to do a quick update of things that were missed along the way and also things that I want to elaborate on in more detail in other posts.
When I went for the glucose test I didn’t think anything of it, because I was healthy! I did an Ironman less than a year before! I had no reason to worry, but when I failed the first test and subsequently failed the three hour test and was officially diagnosed with gestational diabetes, I got really frustrated. And it was really hard for me. I want to share more about that experience, what I ate, and how I managed it, because I spent a lot of time trying to find support on a taboo topic that not many people talk about.
Olivia was born healthy on December 2nd at 37.5 weeks via scheduled C-Section (which was required because of the myomectomy I had in 2012). That was a very surreal moment, but it was the happiest moment of our lives. My husband and I were overjoyed.
Olivia ended up having low blood sugar, which can happen as a result of the increase of sugar in my system due to the gestational diabetes, and was admitted to the NICU on December 3rd. When the doctor came in to tell us this, my heart broke into a million pieces. She was only there for a day and a half, but not being able to spend time with my little girl in my hospital room and having to wheel to the NICU every time I wanted to see her for most of my stay was a really awful experience. Recovering from a C-Section is hard enough, but trying to do it while also trying to get to a different floor of the hospital every few hours was even tougher. I’ll share more about my hospital experience and her birth, because again, it was something that I needed more information about but didn’t really have the energy or the interest in looking things up at the moment.
I came home and was so thankful that my mom was here with us for the first week. It made it so much easier to focus on recovering and breastfeeding around the clock. I felt like a cow, more because of the milking than the weight, but I knew I wanted to try breastfeeding since I got pregnant. We have been very blessed that it has worked well for us after initially having to supplement with formula in the hospital because of the low blood sugar (I was very upset with some of the procedures in the hospital, but I swallowed my pride and just accepted what they were telling me was necessary as fact; I wanted to do what was best for Olivia, and I didn’t know much beyond the class I had been to about breastfeeding).
Olivia will be 11 weeks old tomorrow, and she and I are doing great! She’s so happy most of the time (except her nightly witching hour period), she sleeps pretty well most nights with a few wakeups here and there (we haven’t had a sleep through the night yet), and she is growing beautifully. We are so thankful for our amazing daughter, and we’re slowly learning to become parents! I look forward to sharing a little more back story and also sharing our journey going forward. I do intent to get back to running, and I’ll be returning to work on April 4th. I have a lot to talk about, and I want to document it along the way while also sharing other topics.
I look forward to getting back into it! I promise it won’t completely be a mom blog, but since Olivia is the center of my world now, mom topics will definitely be the most prevalent topic.